Glory All Around

Reflections on Beauty and Wonder


Go North Old Man

Submitted by Bill St. Clair on Fri, 27 Mar 2015 13:41:21 GMT  <== Glory ==> 

I've started the process for moving into a 2-bedroom apartment in Bennington, VT. My wife hasn't accepted it yet, but my daughter did her crying yesterday. It's in the center of town, but on a dead-end street partway up a hill that gets much steeper behind the building, with a bumpy one-lane road at the top. I'm on the second floor in the back of the building. It's 600 square feet with a small bedroom, a large bedroom, a large living room, a tiny laundry room with washer and dryer, a full bath, and a small kitchen, adjoining the living room. Heated with propane-fired baseboard hot water, but electric stove. Go figure. Some nonsense about insurance cost.

White paint everywhere with beige carpeting. 1900 building with brand new interior.

Comcast 25 megabit/second cable internet. I don't plan to get a landline or have a television, other than my 27" iMac monitor.

I expect to move in on April 1 and move my stuff on Easter Saturday.

There's a community choir that does three concerts per year. I hope they'll take me in the middle of their May concert preparation, but if not, I'll start after that.

I'm excited and happy.

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Breaking Up Isn't So Hard. Yet.

Submitted by Bill St. Clair on Sun, 22 Mar 2015 15:38:17 GMT  <== Glory ==> 

After 24 years of marriage and raising two kids in a little house in the woods of the New York Berkshire Hills (I'm from Wyoming; the Berkshires are not mountains), I'm looking for another place to crash, without the wife. This has been happening for a long time, so it's more of a relief than a painful separation (for me), but there will definitely be some difficult times ahead. It costs more to live in two places than one, and finances are already tight. I'm going to pay my rent, but I intend to continue to support the wife and still-at-home daughter, with what I can afford. I hope she doesn't try to make the courts extort more than I can afford.

My non-negotiable requirement is driving distance to a Sahaj Marg meditation center. Desires are lower taxes than NY and better gun laws, neither of which is hard to find.

My first inclination was to move to Southern New Hampshire. Meditation north of Boston, 45 minutes away, no income or sales tax, Constitutional Carry likely coming soon.

Another idea was New Mexico. Slightly lower taxes than NY, no local override of state gun laws, open carry state, much milder winters, and dry climate, sorta like Wyoming, only hotter. But I've never been there, so a reconnaissance mission would be necessary.

But my mom is getting old, and I don't want to miss the time remaining to be with her. And my daughter is not yet independent; I want to be here for her. So I'm starting today looking at rentals in southern Vermont. Highest state income taxes in the country, slightly lower sales tax than NY, but the very first Constitutional Carry state, when it was called Vermont Carry, because they were the only one. Half an hour from my mom, an hour from my daughter.

Wish me luck. And wish my wife and daughter luck and good health.

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Could You Embrace That?

Submitted by Bill St. Clair on Sat, 14 Mar 2015 13:34:45 GMT  <== Poetry ==> 


I said to God, "Let me love you."
And He replied, "Which part?"

"All of you, all of you," I said.

"Dear," God spoke, "you are as a mouse
wanting to impregnate
a tiger who is not even in heat. It is a feat
beyond your courage and strength.
You would run from me
if I removed my

I said to God again,
"Beloved I need to love you—every aspect,
every pore."

And this time God said,

"There is a hideous blemish on my body,
though it is such an infinitesimal part of
my Being—
could you kiss that if it were revealed?"

"I will try, Lord, I will try."

And then God said,
"That blemish is all the hatred and
cruelty in this

Daniel Ladinsky, Love Poems from God

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How Fascinating

Submitted by Bill St. Clair on Mon, 09 Mar 2015 14:41:24 GMT  <== Poetry ==> 



Fascinating the idea of death

Can be.

Too bad, though,


It just isn't


Daniel Ladinsky, The Gift

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Political Blog Is No More

Submitted by Bill St. Clair on Mon, 09 Mar 2015 02:47:05 GMT  <== Glory ==> 

After shining a light on the war on freedom for most of the past 15 years, I have shut down my End the War on Freedom blog. I have also shut down my personal Twitter account and the Twitter accounts of the two bots I was running. I have unfollowed on Facebook all political pages and all people who were too noisy or too political. I have removed from my iPhone the Twitter, Hulu, Netflix, & Amazon Video apps.

I feel like my sanity is slowly returning. Wish me luck. I wish you peace.

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Size Doesn't Matter

Submitted by Bill St. Clair on Thu, 05 Mar 2015 16:44:12 GMT  <== Poetry ==> 

Size Doesn't Matter

I've wondered if
My tiny dick
Is God's way of saying that,
For this lifetime,
I don't have to
Always think of sex.

If so,
He must have forgotten
That size,
Doesn't matter.

Bill St. Clair

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Seek Beauty

Submitted by Bill St. Clair on Wed, 04 Mar 2015 08:28:46 GMT  <== Poetry ==> 

Seek Beauty

If you fight ugliness,
You will become ugly.

If you nurse anger,
It will become hate,
And devour you.

If you seek beauty,
You will find it.

If you practice loving kindness,
You will slowly dissolve
The anger and the ugliness.

Make it so.

Bill St. Clair

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Second Saturn Return

Submitted by Bill St. Clair on Wed, 04 Mar 2015 07:27:32 GMT  <== Glory ==> 

I lost it on Monday afternoon. Came back from my after-lunch dog walk barely able to keep my eyes open. Realized on lying down that the weariness was profound depression.

After sleep I realized that I must once again simplify my life. So I announced on my political blog, and on Facebook & Twitter, that I would be disconnecting and possibly closing those accounts. I'm giving it until Saturday to crystallize in the subconscious.

I also removed the ugliness injectors from my iPhone: Twitter, Facebook, Hulu, Netflix, Amazon Video. I've been reading Hafiz on the Kindle app.

It occurred to me that this is my second Saturn return. iPhemeris verified. When I was born, Saturn was at 2 degrees of Sagittarius. It passed through there in January. It's now retrograde, will pass through again in May, then turn around and make a final pass in October. Triple whammy!

Saturn really kicks your butt if you're not on track. Hoping this simplification will help me get there.

I'm likely to start posting here more. It's been over a year.

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Hafiz: Until

Submitted by Bill St. Clair on Wed, 04 Mar 2015 07:06:47 GMT  <== Poetry ==> 


I think we are frightened every

Moment of our lives

Until we



Daniel Ladinsky, The Gift

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Dying is Absolutely Safe

Submitted by Bill St. Clair on Tue, 06 Aug 2013 19:56:18 GMT  <== Glory ==> 

Ram Dass - Wow!

I have a friend named, Emmanuel. Some of you have met him through his books. He is a spook, a being of Light that has dropped his body. Emmanuel shares a lot of great wisdom. He is like an uncle to me. I once said to him, Emmanuel, I often deal with the fear of death in this culture. What should I tell people about dying? And Emmanuel said, Tell them its absolutely SAFE! He said, Its like taking off a tight shoe.

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