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09/17/2007 Entry: "The End"

IN HARDYVILLE, they all live happily ever after. Well, most of them. More or less. smile

And that ... is that.

Hardyville disappears back into its Brigadoon-like mists. The Claire Files Forums are in the happy process of becoming The Mental Militia Forums (completing the circle, since TMM is where they began -- thank you Elias Alias, Debra, ladylearning, and the late, lamented Walter "Bark" Doss).

Now it's also time to put Wolfesblog into suspended animation -- with thanks and fond farewells to my fellow blogistas, Debra, Ian, Penguinscareme, Silver, and Thunder.

Time to move on.

If you've known me for long, you know I've never been comfortable being in the public eye -- even in a squinty little sideways way. Eight years ago, I tried (and for a while vaguely sort of succeeded) in making a disappearance. Today I looked at my long-ago goodbye statement and was surprised to discover how little has changed.

But I've changed. After a whole lifetime of being "political," I'm just not anymore -- as I think has been apparent for quite a while.

I've always stressed that freedom begins with mindset. Now I see a deeper aspect of mindset: freedom is spiritual. I may write about that. In some other forum. Maybe even under some other name. But it's kinda hard to blog newsy, sound-bitey little updates on spirituality -- even if anybody cared (which I believe few would). So Wolfesblog goes.

I cheer the increasing number of bold freedom-seekers, each fighting for freedom in their own unique, unpredictable ways. (Special kudos to you there in Free State New Hampshire who've been making such great noise and putting your selves so bravely on the line.) We're all at our own places, all have our own things to do, all have our own styles, whether Mole, Ghost, or Agitator.

I still stand by everything I've ever written (except, of course, my more idiotic statements; I'll let you decide which those are smile ). I'm just personally not in the same place any more.

I'll still do some writing for print 'zines. But I'll earn most of my living invisibly and inconsequentially. I still have one more book to get into print -- if my partner and I can find a publisher for it. And I'll happily be an ordinary participant on the TMM Forums. I'm not "disappearing." Just traveling further along my path.

Thank you to all who've supported TCF, this blog, and me personally all these years. Particular thanks to the blessed handful who've shown incredible steadfastness and fidelity month after month, and to the one who ... well, you know who you are, Quiet One. My Amazon.com associates link and Amazon aStore (thank you, Thunder) are still operative. If you shop at Amazon, I'd be happy if you went on using those links -- unless you feel it would be more productive to have your Amazon shopping support some other, active blogger.

When I attempted my earlier escape, I closed by quoting Emily Dickinson ("How dreary to be Somebody ..."). I still identify with that poem. And here's another, in the spirit of this day:

I died for beauty but was scarce
Adjusted in the tomb,
When one who died for truth was lain
In an adjoining room.

He questioned softly why I failed?
"For beauty," I replied.
"And I for truth, -- the two are one;
We brethren are," he said.

And so, as kinsmen met a night,
We talked between the rooms,
Until the moss had reached our lips,
And covered up our names.

Oh yeah, and it's still true: "If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him."

Thank you for 11 sometimes weird but never dull years. See you around.

Posted by Claire @ 12:07 AM CST

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