- In my fear, making decisions that would hurt others.
- Hurting others who were also my friends, not just random people.
- Never properly apologizing.
- Not telling the proper people about what happened -- IE a GOOD lawyer, my friends, etc.
- Relying on my ex-boyfriend to help me through this situation when he could hardly handle his own troubles.
Things I Am Not Sorry About / And I'm Pissed Off About
- I hold the position that I am a victim. I am 100% against everything I did and the drug war as a whole. I did what I did because I was scared and I thought it was my only option. If you can't see that, then so be it, but put yourself in my shoes and listen to my story before making judgments.
- If this whole thing becomes public, I write my book, etc., I will not fail to release the sad truths about the drug war and its effects. Included my ex-friends becoming their own version of the state, them still being friends with the informant who turned me in (WTF, seriously?), and the ex-boyfriend using this as a scape goat to make everyone hate me even more. When you have a gun to your head, you do things you don't want to do -- and when you don't and you're just as bad, that is terrible.
- Being mad that the people who know are telling every Tom, Dick and Harry about this. Maybe respect my privacy a little bit and, again, put yourself in my shoes and realize it is a really complex situation that is hard to grasp when you're only telling people the bad parts.
We live in a community where trust is the only thing that separates us from others. We rely on each other for help, and confidence. You broke that trust, and put people in harms way, instead of just taking personal responsibility for your actions. Of course people are going to tell each other, what did you expect? You are a coward, and there was no gun to your head. You deserve to be ostracized. Those poor kids in jail probably don't think you've been hurt enough. Get off the pity train, admit your actions, apologize, and stop pretending you are a victim. Seriously.
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ReplyDeleteNaomi, grow up and stop acting a like a petty child. This blogger is going through a psychological hell, and anybody who has ever gone through one knows the experience is horrifying, even scarring.
ReplyDeleteI don't know what words I could say. I doubt I could reason with you. However, if you had a shred of empathy or understanding, you would know that what you are saying and what you are doing is horrifying, sickening, and inhuman. Even if the blogger in question is wrong. Even if they are an outright fool, what you are doing and what you are saying is disgusting.
Also, unless there is some crime I don't know of, the crime is "sell[ing] drugs that were safer to use than alcohol and cigarettes", isn't actually immoral on the face of it(at least not more so than selling alcohol or tobacco), and frankly, violations of the law are everywhere. I regularly go 10 miles over the speed limit, and I've violated intellectual property laws more than once in my life. Most people have, and unless you want to argue the canon within the canon, those law violations are equally violations of the law as selling drugs. So, unless there is another wrong, the grounds for ostracizing, admitting moral failure, etc, are incredibly weak. The blogger has essentially done nothing more immoral than any other human being does, it's just that what they've done involved drugs, drugs that probably shouldn't be illegal in the first place.
LOL I am not the one posting anonymously.
ReplyDeleteI would like to think most people would agree with me. It's not so much to ask for her to own up to it all and just apologize. I don't think people would be against allowing her back into the community. But to say you are a victim, it somewhat true. But You had to have known the risk when you stated selling drugs. It should have come as no surprise when you get caught, and you should have been prepared for that. To say you were scared is no excuse. And police cannot offer you deals, only a prosecuter can. You can't expect the police to keep their promises.
You blame everyone else but yourself it seems. I understand you were probably worried about getting kicked out of school, and about going to prison. But if you would have gone to an attorney, and not told the police anything, you could have gotten through this. Now 3 other people are in the SAME position you are.
Comparing going over the speed limit to selling drugs is asinine. Yeah sure, drugs shouldn't be illegal. But we don't live in a fairy and rainbow world where that is a fact. I don't sell drugs, because to me it's not worth the risk. I have to much at stake. And anyone that has the same common sense knows that. You don't get 7 felony accounts for going over the speed limit. I don't agree with what happened to her, but be practical. "It shouldn't be illegal in the first place derp" is an invalid argument.
ReplyDeleteChildish? I don't think so.